All Hell is Going to Break Loose

Never in my life have I ever felt true hatred for another individual. I always thought that it was impossible for me to hate another human being. Sure I can get mad and pissed off, and hold the occasional grudge. But never hate.

But I was proven wrong, I;m not going to go into detail because i don't want to get pissed off again.

All day I've been hiding it, hope I did a good job, I have a feeling I did because no body came up to me "ohh whats wrong?"

I seriously can't let this get to me, not now. I will not let this fuck me over. I have far to much at stake, the play being one of them. I have worked way to damn hard on it, i will not let this ruin me.

I seriously do want to fast forward to when my life is normal. And I "hope to god" am a political powerhouse in my country, and an individual of great power and influence.

I really do want to fight back, but I have to stay cool and let the first shot be fired. But i saw to you all now, it shall not come from me. For I am the better party.

Just feeling random. lol

Ok. so here i am chilling with the girls, lol. Yah, dnt really feel like blogging lol. Were on this thing called Chat Roulette.

Its so funny and stupid. All you do, is video chat with random people in the world.
So yah were just being dorks lol.

C yah peeps.

Tired!!!!!

I'm really super tired. I shit you not people, i went to bed at 3:10 this morning.
I had a lot, thinking to do last night.
And I also saw Milk.
I just love that movie.

I'm really really sleepy. Its 1st period and i'm all ready falling asleep.
Not looking forward to play practice. I have this really, REALLY huge feeling that I am like going to pass out or something.

You know, I all ready did my APUSH project, and it looks great, so I think I am just going to take a nap. My head is already hurting like crazy, and I have five more periods to go. Fuck.

"Sigh"

Had a very, weird day today.

But kicked ass in practice today.

I really am starting to get nervous about the play. Like some of us, don't know some of our lines. Some dance numbers are, not as good as others.

But guess what, we always make it in the end. YAY!!

Heads people. as the play gets closer. The less frequent,my updates will be.

Love you people. MUAH!!

Ehhhhh

Not much happening. Just having play practice and school.

Play practice today, was a bitch. Im so happy that my dance bit did not happen yet. otherwise i would have died, and Ms.Carroll would have killed me.

I have 90% of the dance down so ughh. And when i get i get. I am never stopping to practice it, until the play is over.

shit

ok so here we r in school. There is some guy running around close to my school with a GUN!!!! Yah we can hear the sound of the sirens. its scary

Shocked

Talk about shock.
So here I am doing my homework, and Josh calls me. I was like hey whats up.
Then he just just shrikes at me. having a bad day.
I told him, sorry to hear that.
But Josh, says. Don't be sorry for me. I can handel things on my own.

I sort of got kinda of annoyed, cuz here i am trying to be nice. And here he is yelling at me. I dnt think so.
So i really did start bitching at him.

I was like, how dare you, talk to me like this. you barely know me. Then he said something that just threw me over the edge.
"well i know you enough to figure you'r easy."

I was like. Bitch, you did not just fucking say that to me. How fucking dare you say that. You know I just started tlkng 2 u in da 1st place cuz i figured, ehh ur desperate be nice.I then told him to never call me again and i hung up.

U knw how dare he say that to me.
ME OFF ALL PEOPLE!!!

Anyway, today I kicked ass on my play practice. Yay me!

On a much lighter and happy note. Andrew and I are friends now. Seriously I'm like breathing a sigh or relief
cuz now life is going to be a much more cool between us. Sides we both have a huge road ahead of us, with some other issues.
But like i told him, I will give it my best to help him.
But more importantly I told, him that i just want him to be happy.

Also tomorrow, i have my interview with my recruiter. A little nervous, just think that i am going to make a huge fool of myself or something u knw, I am seriously going to have to be as straight as possible. Maybe I'll ask Andrew for tips on how 2 b straight lol. jkjkjk