Having a bad day!

Ok i Know that im gay but people really don't have to rub it in, it really does start to get annoying. Was really really not in the mood today, and people were all like, Ohh shit Frank's on his period, and OHH SHIT Frank is PMSING!! i was like OMG PEOPLE GROW THE FUCK UP!!!! And an other thing that really did get to me is that the guy that i really really liked has turned into a really big ass whole and jerk.

I just don't get people and guys in general. You know the school that i am at, really sucks. there is only about 350 people and out those 350 guys and girls, 348 of them are straight. I am the only OUT emphasis on OUT gay male at school, and my Best friend Jessica is the only lesbian at the school. So yah i get a alot of shit, and to be honest i have had enough, i stopped crying and I hate those people who make fun of me because they have very much De-sensitized me.

The only thing that i find salvation and peace of mind is with my choir, and the play. It is the one place were i feel that i really do fit in. No one makes fun of me or gives me a hard time.

Another thing that just killed my day was that i had like three people walk up to me calling me fat. I came home today and looked at myself in the mirror and just started crying. I have wanted to look like this guy! Ohh P.S his name is Danny Nunez.

My main Goal is to have a body like his by next August. I really do hope that i do it. Because I do not know. I am just so depressed. I want to loose so much weight then gain some serious muscle. I really do hope that i do it. But i pray to god that i do not end up as an anorexic.